i'm no angel...wait, maybe i am after all

Be sober to live, don’t live to be sober.


About Al K Hall

Like a battered drinker or a punch drunk boxer, i am here for another round. For those of you who don’t know me, i’m a semi-professional writer on the rocks and a non-practicing alcoholic (if after 30 years of practicing, you still can't do something well, it's best to just give it up). For those of you who do know me, thanks for stopping by anyway and where’s the ten bucks you owe me? Welcome to my Bar None. A hole in the wall where we can hang out and trade the kind of stories you swap only when you’ve had one too many and either can’t find your way home or are afraid to. Hell, it’s cheaper than therapy and plus the pictures are prettier. Here we’ll crack open bottles and jokes and ‘last call’ are the only dirty words you’ll never hear. Pull up a stool and make yourselves at home.

Posted on September 28, 2011, in Alcoholism, Lessons in Recovery, Recovery and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.

  1. We’re all angels, but also all have our demons within, IMHO.

    Just for the heck of it, I Googled “live to be solber” just to see what would come up, and found this interesting bit here: How to Live a Sober Life (Article Source:

    I liked this part: “Alcoholics are passionate people. They love to drink and it really does flip that special switch for them and it truly electrifies their life. The problem is that it eventually quits working as their tolerance increases and it becomes impossible to “get happy” anymore. Because they are passionate people, they need a passionate solution for recovery. If you simply strip away the booze and the drugs then an alcoholic is left with a hollow shell of a life; they cannot elicit any passion or excitement about themselves without returning to the bottle.

    Because of this level of passion, it stands to reason that any alcoholic who is living a sober life must live it with passion. This is the solution. Not behavior modification or counseling on Tuesdays and Thursdays or even 12 step programs. Passion.

    Passion is what makes the sober life a success.”

    Just curious: what is/are your passion(s) that is/are keeping you living, keeping you sober to live?

    • Writing! i really get a literal and physical buzz from writing. Always have. It’s a killer high.

      Keep coming back,

      Al K Hall

      • “I Googled “live to be solber”” *giggle*

        Not sure what “solber” is, but I meant “sober,” obviously. 😉

        I’m curious about this part: “a literal and physical buzz.”

        If it is a literal and physical buzz, then how is the writing you experience different from just another addiction?

        What I mean is, when there is something about writing where one can have a literal and physical “buzz,” how is it different from other forms of addiction (the buzz ogtten from compulsive gambling, compulsive video gaming, compulsive eating, etc.)? If it is compulsive and uncontrollable (a situation where the person experiences a real loss of control with the use of an activity or substance — that person *has* to do it), or if the behavior (in this case, writing) is a way to disconnect from life and relationships with others, then isn’t it just another addiction? I’m not saying it *is* but I really would like to understand how writing for you is different or where the boundary lies between “addiction” and “non-addiction” in regard to writing.

        (One reason I am asking about this is I recently learned about something called “hypergraphia.” I’m wondering if something like writing is something to which someone actually can be addicted, or if it is a manifestation of another problem — in the case of hypergraphia, a symptom of a disease/disorder.)

        • Hi Angel,

          Obviously any action can become a compulsion because a compulsion is any action done to an extreme. Is my writing a compulsion? Perhaps. With the amount of writing i’ve been doing lately, i could even say probably. So what’s the difference between my writing and alcoholism? The effects it has on my life. Writing has always been therapeutic for me, so by writing i’m making my life better. Writing is creative and constructive. Drinking is unproductive and destructive.

          i appreciate how much time and effort you’ve been consecrating to this blog, m’dear!

          Keep comin’ back,

          Al K Hall

  2. P.S. I have been, as you know, a long-time sufferer of “hypercommentia.” It manifests itself in “hyperblommentia.” I’ve had the symptoms for years, ever since blogging really hit its stride in 2005. 😉

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