A Big Step
Steps 4 & 5 of the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book read:
Step 4) Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
Step 5) Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
i spent a week or so doing my “fearless moral inventory” and it was less painful than i thought. i did it in starts and fits and in the end i had 2½ pages with 3 columns, following the outline in the Big Book.
Step 5 was exhausting. i admitted to God, myself and the other human being was my sponsor. It took about 3 hours and i was reminded yet again how crucial it is to have a good sponsor.
Mine listened closely and did not judge. He told me some of his Step 4 stories and we took breaks. When i’d finished, he found patterns in my defects and gave me specific advice on how to work on each of them. i’ll be sharing some of these tips here, soon.
When i stood up at the end, i was light headed. A little woozy. i felt raw and drained.
But i felt different.
Posted on October 23, 2011, in AA Step Work, Alcoholics Anonymous, Alcoholism, Lessons in Recovery, Recovery and tagged AA, AA Sponsor, AA Step 4, AA Steps, Alcohol Recovery, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, Recovery, Step 4, What i learned in AA. Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.