That’s Not Funny
You may find this hard to believe, but i’m quite the hedonist. OK, so maybe it’s not hard to believe.
Point is, “good times” sums up pretty much the entire bedrock foundation of why i drank.
If it’s not fun i won’t do it
was my credo for 30 odd years. Very odd years.
The funny thing is is that it wasn’t. Funny, that is. My drinking was neither funny nor fun.
The longest my binge buzz peak ever lasted was 3 hours. That’s the absolute longest and a generous estimate at that. After came the spending of all my money, followed by self humiliation, the dangerous trip home, the physical hangover (12 hours minimum), the spiritual hangover the day after that, then the financial hole that lasted for weeks which led to depression and unavoidably more drinking.
i thought i was all about the fun yet i was consistently misleading a life that inevitably took me into a downward spiral of sufferance. The misconception that i was in a constant search for happiness while steadily walking further and further away from it is one more attestation to the insanity i was drowning myself in.
No one ever came to Alcoholics Anonymous because they were having too much fun.
This was one of the first lessons i learned In AA.
Posted on November 13, 2011, in Alcoholics Anonymous, Alcoholism, Lessons in Recovery, Recovery and tagged AA, Alcohol Insanity, Alcohol Recovery, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, Insanity, Recovery, What i learned in AA. Bookmark the permalink. 12 Comments.