i Know A Guy Who Killed Himself
A man i never knew committed suicide on Christmas Eve. He checked into a hotel room, mixed antifreeze with Gatorade and checked out permanently. He left a note online, in his blog, where he mentioned his alcoholism was a problem.
Things I Regret
- My inability to conquer my alcoholism
- The things I did because of it
i never met Joe Bodolai but i knew him. Less than a year ago, i, too, overdosed on a mixed cocktail of pills while drunk and left ominous suicide notes online, only to be saved the next morning by my now wife and 16-year-old son, before spending 2 weeks in the hospital. The first thing i did after my release was to go to an AA meeting. On January 11, 2012, i will have been sober one year.
In an AA meeting room once, an old timer shared that he hit bottom and was faced with a choice between death and sobriety. He chose death. When that didn’t work out, he had no choice but to try AA. He’s been sober 45 years.
Alcoholism is a terminal disease. That i survived it is a miracle. Every day i am alive is a gift i tired to throw away and had returned to me. It’s a gift i try to share with my children, the rest of my family, and friends.
May wherever you are be better than the place you left, Joe. And may your family find peace in this tragedy.
Posted on December 28, 2011, in Alcoholics Anonymous, Alcoholism, Lessons in Recovery, Recovery and tagged AA, Alcohol Insanity, Alcohol Recovery, Alcohol suicide, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, Gratitude, Joe Bodolai, Recovery, suicide, What i learned in AA. Bookmark the permalink. 10 Comments.