Brave Enough To Not Be Brave

Used 2012-09-10 Helping Hands alcoholic recovery sobriety

The theme of the Friday night AA meeting here is “The Courage To Change”. Last Friday, the guy who spoke said that true courage is not fighting all your battles alone like some crazed knight, but asking those around you for help. Simple truths cut deepest…

Unfortunately, this goes against everything i have been taught since i was old enough to learn, and i’m afraid i’m too old to change.


About Al K Hall

Like a battered drinker or a punch drunk boxer, i am here for another round. For those of you who don’t know me, i’m a semi-professional writer on the rocks and a non-practicing alcoholic (if after 30 years of practicing, you still can't do something well, it's best to just give it up). For those of you who do know me, thanks for stopping by anyway and where’s the ten bucks you owe me? Welcome to my Bar None. A hole in the wall where we can hang out and trade the kind of stories you swap only when you’ve had one too many and either can’t find your way home or are afraid to. Hell, it’s cheaper than therapy and plus the pictures are prettier. Here we’ll crack open bottles and jokes and ‘last call’ are the only dirty words you’ll never hear. Pull up a stool and make yourselves at home.

Posted on September 10, 2012, in Alcoholics Anonymous, Alcoholism, Lessons in Recovery, Recovery and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. You’re never too old to change – one of my students is 62, she left her 2nd husband a year ago and is having a life changing experience of her own. 🙂

    • Sorry about the delay, somehow your comment got marked as spam!

      Never to old to change, perhaps not, but like waking up in the morning, it doesn’t get easier with time. Still, for the things that are worth it, it’s worth it.

      Thanks for the comment and keep coming back!

      Al K Hall

  2. I was raised the same way. For what it is worth I don’t think you are too old to change. L.

    • Thanks for your support, L!

      It’s certainly a rough period for me, but i’m learning who and how to ask for help. It’s hard because i feel fragile at this moment and in the past, whenever i felt that way, i’d get drunk and numb out. Being forced to come to terms with this sensation is a challenge, but hopefully making me stronger with every day. Anyway, i appreciate your being here!

      Keep coming back,

      Al K Hall

  3. Hey you. I haven’t been around for awhile. Sorry times are rough. The challenges go up as time goes on. … as the onion peels …. it gets closer to the “meat” so to speak. Be kind to yourself. I hope there’s someone who will feel blessed to let you tell them about your challenges. Numbing is SO very temporary and so very dangerous. I know you will find comfort in people, some good people. Keep yer chin up, youngster!

    • Hi Mel!

      It’s so good to see you again! You’re so right about getting in touch with others. That’s really a lesson i’ve been learning lately. i’ve always been afraid to show myself as weak / fragile, but now i see it’s a lesson in humility. i was also afraid that there would be people who perceived me as being strong and how certainly don’t like to see me in need. That’s fine too. The key for me is to not be afraid of disappointing some but to be courageous enough to tell people how i’m feeling and to seek out assurance and help from those who are around me. i’m hanging in there…Sleep and Meetings and i’ll be fine!

      Keep coming back,

      Al K Hall

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