Posted by Al K Hall
When i was still drinking, i had a lot of rules to keep myself in check. Here’s a taste:
- No drinking on weeknights
- Only one bottle of wine per drinking session
- Only drink what i have in the house
- Alternate a glass of water with each glass of wine/beer
- No drinking when i have the kids
Each of these worked like a charm. Until it didn’t. Unfortunately, these stopgaps stopped working when it came to the Fuggit Button.
i have an unusually large Fuggit Button. This is the button i hit when i give up. It happens like this: i’m going along my merry way doing things like i should be until, all of a sudden, i realize i don’t have to. Before you can say “hold on”, this huge Fuggit Button fills my brain and it’s all i can see so i press it. i give up. Fuggit. It happens automatically so that i don’t even have time to think about it.
This worked out great for me. Until it didn’t.
Last night i’d planned to go to an AA meeting that started 2 hours after i finished work which meant i had to hang out in the subway before the start of the meeting and i got home at 9:30 pm instead of 6:00.
Just as my work day was finishing, i decided to press the Fuggit Button and go home early and write instead. Then, a strange thing happened. i caught myself.
Dude, you see what you just did there?
You just hit the Fuggit Button.
You just decided to forget your responsibilities. You just opted not to do the next right thing.
So that’s the way your mind operated when you were drinking. And how did that work out for you?
Hmm. Maybe i’ll go to the meeting instead.
The topic of the meeting was gratitude, which fit, because today i have one more thing to be grateful for.
What about you…i’m curious to know if you had rules to curb your drinking and, if so, what were they? Leave a comment and let us know!
About Al K HallLike a battered drinker or a punch drunk boxer, i am here for another round. For those of you who don’t know me, i’m a semi-professional writer on the rocks and a non-practicing alcoholic (if after 30 years of practicing, you still can't do something well, it's best to just give it up). For those of you who do know me, thanks for stopping by anyway and where’s the ten bucks you owe me? Welcome to my Bar None. A hole in the wall where we can hang out and trade the kind of stories you swap only when you’ve had one too many and either can’t find your way home or are afraid to. Hell, it’s cheaper than therapy and plus the pictures are prettier. Here we’ll crack open bottles and jokes and ‘last call’ are the only dirty words you’ll never hear. Pull up a stool and make yourselves at home. http://about.me/AlKHall
Posted on November 9, 2012, in Alcoholics Anonymous, Alcoholism, Lessons in Recovery, Recovery and tagged AA, alcohol, Alcohol Insanity, Alcohol Recovery, alcoholic, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, Fuggit, Fuggit Button, Gratitude, Insanity, Instincts, mental-health, Recovery, sobriety. Bookmark the permalink. 18 Comments.