The Big Deal
When i was in university i didn’t wash my sheet during my senior year. At the end, it was a mural containing the stains that painted the story of my life.
Now, i make my bed every morning. i do the laundry weekly, iron my shirts on Sunday night and clean my sheets every other week.
When i was drinking, everything was a big deal. Cleaning was huge deal. Writing was a huge deal. Following through was a deal so huge there was no point in even trying.
In the past, everything was such a big deal in my head that i couldn’t even begin to begin. Now, because i’m not afraid to start, i understand that chores and articles and friendships are molehills and not the mountains i’d made of them. One of the things i’m grateful for in sobriety is that i can start things.
Being “right-sized” is not just a question of putting myself in correct perspective, but the life around me as well.
Posted on December 8, 2012, in Alcoholism, Lessons in Recovery, Recovery and tagged alcohol, Alcohol Insanity, Alcohol Recovery, alcoholic, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, Gratitude, Insanity, mental-health, Recovery, Right Sized, sobriety, What i learned in AA. Bookmark the permalink. 10 Comments.