Last week i went to the office Christmas party. i’ve been working in the same company for 20 years and at the beginning i loved the annual excuse to get trashed, then i grew to hate the Friday hangover so severe death seemed the only cure so i stopped going altogether.
This was the first one i’ve been to in sobriety and the results were mixed.
- i was less comfortable than i’d hoped
- i ate way too much as i nibbled when i would have sipped before
- Several people went out of their way to let me know how glad they were i’d showed up (everyone knows i’m sober and in AA, so they’d expected me to blow off the party again)
- i felt more comfortable when my coworkers started getting drunk
- A drunken Irish girl vaguely flirted with me by daring herself to see how many Mince Pies she could fit in her mouth at one time
In a couple days, i’ll be flying out of Yeaman to spend around 10 days with my family. In the past, i felt a need to stay trashed throughout the entire holiday season. i believed the only way i could support the holidays was if i was leaning against it with a glass in hand. Now, i understand my drinking is what made the holidays so stressful.
To all my readers, thank you for your support this year. Your presence on this blog and in my life has made sobriety more fun than it should be 😉 .
May next year see your dreams reachable and your challenges surmountable.
Posted on December 22, 2012, in Alcoholism, Recovery and tagged alcohol, Alcohol Recovery, alcoholic, Alcoholic Christmas, Christmas Alcoholism, Gratitude, Insanity, mental-health, Recovery, sobriety. Bookmark the permalink. 22 Comments.