It’s Peanuts

Snoopy Rootbeer AlKHall Anonymous recovery sobriety alcoholism

The Glass Half Full

i’m not only a binge drinker, i’m a binge lifer. In my years of active drinking, i binge drank, binge slept, binge ate… Once i began there was no  halfway so there was no end and i would only stop until i blacked out, threw up or bled from it.

At work the other day i was talking to a Normal (non-alcoholic) and i showed him what kind of peanuts i’d snacked on at lunch. When he saw the half-eaten bag he said, “Wow, I could never do that. I can’t not finish a bag of food. Once I have one, I have to have them all.”

Silly me, it was only later that evening at an AA meeting that i realized what progress i’ve made in the 2 years since i went sober.

And that…that is not Peanuts.


About Al K Hall

Like a battered drinker or a punch drunk boxer, i am here for another round. For those of you who don’t know me, i’m a semi-professional writer on the rocks and a non-practicing alcoholic (if after 30 years of practicing, you still can't do something well, it's best to just give it up). For those of you who do know me, thanks for stopping by anyway and where’s the ten bucks you owe me? Welcome to my Bar None. A hole in the wall where we can hang out and trade the kind of stories you swap only when you’ve had one too many and either can’t find your way home or are afraid to. Hell, it’s cheaper than therapy and plus the pictures are prettier. Here we’ll crack open bottles and jokes and ‘last call’ are the only dirty words you’ll never hear. Pull up a stool and make yourselves at home.

Posted on February 2, 2013, in Alcoholism, Lessons in Recovery, Recovery and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 10 Comments.

  1. Great one! I was the same – I couldn’t not finish anything or go half measures on anything. If I was into something, I was *into* it, and there was no way I could moderate it. I get what that guy was saying about peanuts. I remember telling my therapist about this (during my drinking years) and he suggested I leave a half finished bottle of water and don’t touch it. See what comes up. I couldn’t do it. I certainly couldn’t do that with alcohol, unless I was passed out or had no choice. But I agree with what you said at the end there – I too have noticed a slowing down, a calming, a less “attacking” way with dealing with thing, little and not so little. I don’t binge on emotions, or food, or attention, or anything like that. I can moderate many things, and take things as they come a lot better than I did before. I am getting better at it too. I totally identify – thanks for this!

    • Half a glass of water would have been impossible for me! i couldn’t leave food on my plate, alcohol in the fridge or a bottle of wine unfinished. And look at us now! Rocking our sobriety. Hang in there and keep coming back,

      Al K Hall

  2. That certainly is not! Fantastic stuff Mr Hall. Sending love your way xxxx

  3. Love those small, sudden realizations of how we have changed for the better. Great post.

  4. love love love this!

  5. This is fabulous. I just love it.


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