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Chairs to You

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Even as a little boy, i thought too much. i remember at the age of five asking my mother for the definition of ‘happy’. i also told her that life was unfair because it’s easier to break a chair than make one.

And i feel this way still today. A craftsman can spend weeks carefully assembling a chair with skill and artistry, using only the most valuable materials, and yet that same chair can be destroyed in a heartbeat. i know that i left a hell of a lot of broken chairs in my wake when i was drinking.

It feels like there’s something wrong with a universe where breaking is easier than creating.

Or maybe it’s the universe’s way of telling us that the easy way out isn’t necessarily the best way.

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About Al K Hall

Like a battered drinker or a punch drunk boxer, i am here for another round. For those of you who don’t know me, i’m a semi-professional writer on the rocks and a non-practicing alcoholic (if after 30 years of practicing, you still can't do something well, it's best to just give it up). For those of you who do know me, thanks for stopping by anyway and where’s the ten bucks you owe me? Welcome to my Bar None. A hole in the wall where we can hang out and trade the kind of stories you swap only when you’ve had one too many and either can’t find your way home or are afraid to. Hell, it’s cheaper than therapy and plus the pictures are prettier. Here we’ll crack open bottles and jokes and ‘last call’ are the only dirty words you’ll never hear. Pull up a stool and make yourselves at home. http://about.me/AlKHall

Posted on May 22, 2013, in Alcoholism, Lessons in Recovery, Recovery and tagged , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 12 Comments.

  1. Oh but the beauty in a lovingly crafted chair, the joy that it can bring, the hours that can be spent in it… those are the things that matter. Everything can be destroyed.. that’s just a fact, and it’s easy. Enjoying things… now that is sometimes much harder… but we’re learning my friend, we are learning. I do honestly think that a sober life is greatly enhanced by stopping to enjoy the little things. This is thought provoking, thanks xxx

    • Nicely put Al and Mrs. D! I can imagine how hard it is for you to share the crap (thoughts/ruminations) feelings that sometimes surface in flood-gate momentum, and the realization that getting and staying sober means we are given the opportunity to live life. The hard part is finding our “terms”. But, like Mrs. D so eloquently says, we get to pick out the things that bring us joy (paraphrased). Many times it IS a favorite pillow, or a relaxing walk down one rue or another. Sometimes the shit from the PAST comes down hard and fast (and we are sincerely sorry for what we did): Key word: DID. Over. You are fantastic, you’re right on time, be cool. You’re all right. You’ll get through it.

      Here’s one of my favorite sayings, “turn your head off”. Well, not the creative side … just the over-thinking stuff. I get it.

      Man, if I could go back and be a NON-THINKING child, i probably would have been much better with the wolves. 😉

      • Sharing crap feelings is such a big help. By getting them ‘out there’ i’m getting them out of me. And thinking is definitely not a help in that case. You’re right, the idea is to turn off the thinking part of the brain and turn on the turned on part!

        Keep coming back,

        Al K Hall

    • Enjoying the chair sounds like a great idea. i’ve been forcing myself to do so much lately, that i think i need to learn that avoiding the chair is just as bad as breaking it! Thanks for the comment, it’s got me thinking!

      Keep coming back,

      Al K Hall

  2. Imagine, Al, waking up to that amazing picture (once again). Keg inserted into entertainment center (which no one heard … or thought was REALLY funny!)

    Not worth a sip, is it?

  3. Love this! So true. And then, how much more work does it take to put the broken chair back together! And it never looks the way it did when it was new, right? It is so much easier to just take good care of the chair. 🙂

  4. So I just read this story about a broken chair by Marc Maron (I’m late to the wtf podcast, but adore him already) and he’s sober and I dunno, just had to share: http://www.npr.org/books/titles/179012623/attempting-normal?tab=excerpt#excerpt

    Maybe the chairs you smashed were cursed too!

    • What a great read! Thanks for the tip, BBB. As for my chairs…cursed is maybe indeed what they were. i’m just pumped i got e some new chairs, and these ones i’m taking really good care of.

      Keep coming back, my friend,

      Al K Hall

  5. I feel the same way about Thanksgiving dinners… they take hours (if not days) to prepare, then 15 minutes (if you’re lucky) to eat! But I guess it’s a glass half full/half empty scenario… as an amateur cook I love taking the time to prepare something, and I get a lot of enjoyment watching other people enjoy my cooking… maybe it’s the same with the chair-maker?

    Hmmm… now I’m overthinking! Thanks, Al!

    • Thanksgiving isn’t a whole hell of a lot of fun with broken chairs, so i think you’re onto something! Thanks for the visit, Miracle!

      Keep coming back,

      Al K Hall

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