Something to Look Forward to
When i drank, i looked forward to drinking and i looked forward to drinking because i looked forward to forgetting i had nothing to look forward to.
Sobriety not only saved my life, Sobriety gave me a life worth saving.
A corollary to that expression is,
Sobriety not only gave me a future, but gave me a future i can look forward to.
You know me (and if you don’t it’s because you’ve had your shots), i’m all about living in the present. Still, i can’t deny i’m looking forward to spending vacation with my family because being sober means i’ll be able to enjoy it more. i’m also looking forward to this weekend because there are 2-3 concerts in the park i’m going to see. i’m looking forward to going to bed soon because i’ll curl up under the blanket with my electronica and read and watch movies…
i’m looking forward to 10 minutes from now because i’ll ‘meditate’ to good music while i wash dishes and i’ll feel good about turning off the lights on a clean apartment. i’m looking forward to a few minutes from now because i’ll post this puppy and have the feeling i’ve accomplished something. i’m looking forward to a few seconds from now because i like looking for funny pictures to attach to these posts.
i’m not saying life is always good, but it’s a damn sight better. And keeps getting more so.