i have regrets
i have a lot to learn and, unfortunately, i learn as slow as a snail in syrup.
Today’s example of this is regrets. i’ve posted before about how i do regret my past and i just can’t get (dare i say it? – yes, i dare) past it. i know i’m not supposed to regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it, but i do.
i did some pretty shitty things in my past. If it were just me, then yeah, i could probably let it go. But i hurt people in my drunkenness. Badly. i cannot say i don’t regret this.
Now i know i have to accept my past. i can do this. I know i have to recognize my past led me to where i am today and i do. Job done. But i regret hurting loved ones to get here.
If regret means
- Wishing i had not hurt people
- Feeling sad that my drunken decisions adversely affected others
- Experiencing pangs of guilt over my past actions
then i regret the hell out of a lot of the bullshit i pulled back in the day.
But i’m trying to get better. Case in point, i’m opening this up to my readers in general and i’m saying that i don’t know how to stop regretting my past actions and i’m asking you to help me with your advice, suggestions, tips and whatever else it takes to help me get over these regrets!
Thanks in advance, peeps!